who are the real monsters

 

 

Monster they hid and they sneak
They attack you when you’re weak
There under your bed and in the closet
Just sitting there making me want to vomit

Where are they really
For me I see it clearly
There all in your face
No matter your race

Disguised in flesh
They promise you the best
There all around use
Not mentioning the smallest fuse

The girl down the street
Or even the guy standing in the sleet
Anyone can be the beast
Even that person who gust sneezed

It’s inside you and me
No matter how we flee
We can hide in our armor
But no matter what we are the monster

look around

Looking around I see
No one knows what it’s like to be me
They all do their daily routine
And in my head they don't know a thing

The boy no one knows holds his legs in his desk
The girl asleep getting a rest
The boy in the leather chilling with ease
The girl in the hoody looking at me

No one will know my story
No one will see my fury
How I felt
Or that I cued have melt
 
The boy in the back annoys me so deep
The girl by him who can hear my every peep
The boy in the blue drinks some water
The girl in the cameo looks around with a bother

The teacher in front doesn’t care
He tells use a story that life’s not fare
Oh how I cued yell at him and give him my palm
All I can do is pray to stay calm

The boys’ who grade I envy looks around with frustration
The girl with red hair full of concentration
The boy that plays on the football team wanting to be seen
The girl in the front row showing no sign of being mean

Oh how I wish I cued except
Even though my grade is grate
The tears from the past
Can come back so fast

The boy in the corner I want to give my palm
The girl behind him looks so calm
The boy in the bake draws on his desk
The girl in the gray holds her bag to her chest

There’s so many behind me who I can’t even see
Although many of them just annoy me
But they are still there
Even though I no longer care

On geometry how you’re so mean to me
How can the book make me want to flee
I hear the very subject and want to cry
I hear the very subject and want to fly

12/2

12 specific goals you have for the next 2 years (in complete sentences)

1) To grow out my hair until it touches the middle of my back.

2) To be going to C of O for my culinary degree.

3) To have my own car I can drive to and back from collage.

4) To me published with at least one novel.

5) To be able to not have anger when I hear the name Laura.

6) To be able to see my ex’s and not want to punch them in the face.

7) To weigh less for my health and self-stem.

8) To be able to talk about my mom and not want to cry.

9) To have seen a beach with my own eyes and not in the movies.

10) To have seen the third Hunger Games movie in IMAX 3D.

11) To be out of high school and on my way to collage.

12) To have beater spelling skills.

 

12 of the best gifts you’ve ever gotten and who each were from

1) Mr. Bunny from my mom

2) My tiger pendant necklace from my mom.

3) My American Girl doll from my grandma.

4) Sonshine my bird from my mom.

5) A my laptop from my dad.

6) My ddr from my mom and dad.

7) Snow globs from my brother

8) Boots from my dad

9) My doll house from my mom and dad

10) My ps3 from my brother

11) My zone from my mom and dad

12) Life from my mom and dad

Brownies

 

 

 

I remember so much from my life having to do with food. When I was young I would get upset because my older brother would always get to do more than me. I didn’t see why when I was younger but I do now. Pluses not being able to see over the stove helped my mom make her decision. If I cued do anything I would want to go bake to myself and say “it’s going to be ok, that I’ll have my many days in the kitchen. Even days were all I would want to do is sit down or put my feet up.”

Once I got to the age of seeing over the stove and knowing not to touch it when it’s on, my mother finely let me cook. One of the first things she tote me to make was boxed brownies. They would always come out the same, hard and dry like any other brownie. But I thought they were the best thing in the world.

As I grew my mother would let me cook even more. It got to the point to where if she didn’t want to cook she would tell me I cued. Being so young I thought this meant that she wanted me to grow in the field of cooking when it really meant that she would want to sit down with her feet up.

Sadly in a blink of an eye she had to sit down with her feet up all of the time. I started to cook all of the time and was learning to love it, even though my feet where telling me otherwise. I started to make brownies all of the time for my family. They got much better to the point of my brother even bragging to his friends about them. Saying I knew gust how to make them so that even after sitting out all night they would still be gooey in the morning. I like to joke around and say that’s how I got my second brother. I know he really isn’t my brother, but he was always over at the house on the weekends and always wanted to have brownies.

After my mother passed I became very depressed. I wouldn’t want to do a thing. That is until I would hear my dad in the kitchen cooking. I cued hear the sizzling sound of butter in a hot pan, about to become fajitas all the way down the hall where I hide in my room. The feeling of taking nothing and making something. I missed it. I knew I couldn’t live without it. Now I cook at least once a day. But my favorites are the midnight calls. Where my two brothers will come home with a box of brownie mix telling me I had no choice but to make them baronies. On the outside I was always wining saying I didn’t want to, but on the inside I loved the fact that I was able to make something that my brothers loved.

Dan in Real Life

#9 what makes someone a hottie to you?
For me to think of someone as a hottie they have to...
Be tall-no exceptions if your shorter than me than your ugly in my eyes
Have dark hair- I don’t want no beach boy
Have the muscles- I love seeing something I can hold on to when I’m scared or sad

#11where was your best hiding spot as a kid playing hide and seek?
I was called the queen of Hide and Seek. Almost no one cued find me. There was one time where my baby sitter brother and I were playing and I was in my room in my dirty close hamper with the clothes on top of me. There where holes in the side so I cued look out and see what was going on and, my brother had already been found so they were both looking for me. They looked everywhere but in the hamper and I was so quite. Than as they were leaving my room they turned off the lights and called me out saying they gave up.

#16 Marie's answer to the previous question is that she has a talent for making pancakes. What is your special talent?
I’m really good at making jewelry. I sometimes even sell it when I get the chance. I can also draw and paint pretty well.

#23 Have you ever fallen for a friend's mate? Has a friend ever fallen for yours? What happened?
Oh yes I have. Let’s gust say I won that battle. Than one time my friend did fall for my guy and well took him from me but I made shire she would never do that again. You see to me men are like meat. If I want yours than I might just take it, but if you want mine, than you best watch out because I will get my revenge... Sooner or later.

#28 Dan's brother gets over Marie pretty fast. Have you ever had trouble getting over someone?
My last ex. we were almost to our one year mark and he started being hurt by dating me because I wasn’t able to have time for a relationship. so I let him go and he said he wouldn’t date anyone ells that he would wait for me, not even two days later there was another chick on his arm.

Movies To Me

YOU ARE 92% EXTRAVERTED.
You are extraverted, outgoing, active and high-spirited. You prefer to be around people most of the time.

YOU ARE 67% AGREEABLE. You are generally warm, trusting, and agreeable, but you can sometimes be stubborn and competitive.

YOU ARE 67% CONSCIENTIOUS. You are dependable and moderately well-organised. You generally have clear goals and are able to set goals aside.

YOU ARE 67% EMOTIONALLY STABLE. You are generally calm and able to deal with stress, but you sometimes experience feelings of guilt, anger and sadness.

YOU ARE 100% OPEN TO NEW EXPERIENCES. You are open to new experiences. You have broad interests and are very imaginative.





This is what the move quiz had to say about me. I have to agree with it. I am exactly that, all though I wouldn’t say I’m 100% open to new things because there are some things out there I would so not do. Like sky diving and bungee jumping, really anything that has to do with me falling or being upside down. Strangely though I do want to go zip lining. I think that would be lauds of fun. I do find myself to be stable in my emotions, I mean yes I have my outburst sometimes, but hay I’m a girl so sue me! That aside though I am very organized, everything has a place and needs to be there. The only thing is that I’m also lazy, so the chance of everything getting to where it needs to be is very small. I thought I was a lot more agreeable than that but I guess not. Although now that I look at it, I can be pushy when it comes to making dissensions. Like how I will try to get what I want even if it’s not what you want. Extraverted, I just like the sound of that word. That is also me I am always full of energy and can even be the life of the party.

As far as this being true or not, I think it is. I mean the results are really close to how I feel and act on my day to day life. Than all of the questions seemed to be real like. So over all I would believe it.

 

Poem of Life