Starry sky

There are so many stars in the ski

Some will stand others will fly

There are more than we can hope to see

But none compare to how much you love me

My hopes and dreams lay around

As others push them to the ground

You help me collect them all

As you never let me fall

A stars so bright gust like your smile

You can see it from over a mile

It cheers me up past the stars

Even more than a bright shiny car

So when I can’t take anymore of day to day life

I’ll look up at that starry night

Knowing I never have to truly say bye

Because I love you more than that starry ski

True Beauty

If you look in the mirror and don't see what you want

Than listen to me to let your heart flaunt

There's a simple task to see

As long as you never leave

Clear your mind 

And there you will find 

That with no fear

You need to let thy heart be thy mirror

Walking Pome

Cold and dark the ski is

Filled to the rim of winter fizz
The trees blow with a swing
All you can hear is there sweet gently ring

The leafs fall to the ground

I look in the grass to see them all around
The wind it feels so bitter cold
That life cued end as we know

The flag in the distant blows with pride

Even as I run inside
The warmth fills me with such joy
Even more than that silly boy

He tries so hard to do his best

But winter really is a mess
My heart so picky it wants what it wants
But deep inside it wants what it wants

looking after parents

When children have to "look after" their parents

You know it’s a sad truth. Some parents really can’t look after themselves yet they have a kid. Because you know it sounded like a good idea right. No it’s wrong. I hate parents who don’t know how to raise a child because they themselves are a child.

I think that growing up in a situation where I had to grow up fast (witch I do not blame my parents for at all, it was completely out of their hands, and they still tried to give me the childhood I wanted and needed) I find it hard to deal with other parents that are being childish. I think that if you really want something than you should work hard to get it. If you see that you have a problem with depression than find help.

 Now I’m waiting for that one person to say you don’t know what it’s like…yeah OK. I know what it’s like, feeling worthless like you don’t mean anything. Like every bite of food you take is hurting you. Like you can sleep for hours (23 is my record, but only because my mom woke me up) and still sleep for more. Like talking to people and smiling is forced and not like it used to be. It hurts, bad. Like no one knows what you’re going through, but there are others. They will help you, but like I said you will only get it if you want it. I wanted to be able to smile without being on a drug. I wanted to sit with my dad and not want to burst in to tears. So I got it. Don’t get me wrong I still have my days. But I have found what I needed, and that’s someone who will be there for me at only a phone call away.

So what I really wanted to get across is, don’t be a child with a kid. If you need help get it. If you’re not able to stand on your own, find someone to carry you for a little. I know how hard that can be, but do it for your kid.

If...

If i was to pick one thing that always makes me smile it would have to be a warm drink.

I love the feeling of a warm drink traveling down my throat. I know that sounds so wearied but it feels as if it's melting my pain away. I mostly like to drink warm drinks when i have a sore throat anyways. Though i love the proses of making them, I always find it fun. My favorite has to be hot coco with whip cream. I have never really liked the hot coco that is like "would you like some milk with that coco". I love a good creamy coco, it’s my little simply presser.
So if you ever see me crying or upset, and you really want to do something to help. Give me a hot coco with extra whip cream.

who are the real monsters

 

 

Monster they hid and they sneak
They attack you when you’re weak
There under your bed and in the closet
Just sitting there making me want to vomit

Where are they really
For me I see it clearly
There all in your face
No matter your race

Disguised in flesh
They promise you the best
There all around use
Not mentioning the smallest fuse

The girl down the street
Or even the guy standing in the sleet
Anyone can be the beast
Even that person who gust sneezed

It’s inside you and me
No matter how we flee
We can hide in our armor
But no matter what we are the monster

look around

Looking around I see
No one knows what it’s like to be me
They all do their daily routine
And in my head they don't know a thing

The boy no one knows holds his legs in his desk
The girl asleep getting a rest
The boy in the leather chilling with ease
The girl in the hoody looking at me

No one will know my story
No one will see my fury
How I felt
Or that I cued have melt
 
The boy in the back annoys me so deep
The girl by him who can hear my every peep
The boy in the blue drinks some water
The girl in the cameo looks around with a bother

The teacher in front doesn’t care
He tells use a story that life’s not fare
Oh how I cued yell at him and give him my palm
All I can do is pray to stay calm

The boys’ who grade I envy looks around with frustration
The girl with red hair full of concentration
The boy that plays on the football team wanting to be seen
The girl in the front row showing no sign of being mean

Oh how I wish I cued except
Even though my grade is grate
The tears from the past
Can come back so fast

The boy in the corner I want to give my palm
The girl behind him looks so calm
The boy in the bake draws on his desk
The girl in the gray holds her bag to her chest

There’s so many behind me who I can’t even see
Although many of them just annoy me
But they are still there
Even though I no longer care

On geometry how you’re so mean to me
How can the book make me want to flee
I hear the very subject and want to cry
I hear the very subject and want to fly

12/2

12 specific goals you have for the next 2 years (in complete sentences)

1) To grow out my hair until it touches the middle of my back.

2) To be going to C of O for my culinary degree.

3) To have my own car I can drive to and back from collage.

4) To me published with at least one novel.

5) To be able to not have anger when I hear the name Laura.

6) To be able to see my ex’s and not want to punch them in the face.

7) To weigh less for my health and self-stem.

8) To be able to talk about my mom and not want to cry.

9) To have seen a beach with my own eyes and not in the movies.

10) To have seen the third Hunger Games movie in IMAX 3D.

11) To be out of high school and on my way to collage.

12) To have beater spelling skills.

 

12 of the best gifts you’ve ever gotten and who each were from

1) Mr. Bunny from my mom

2) My tiger pendant necklace from my mom.

3) My American Girl doll from my grandma.

4) Sonshine my bird from my mom.

5) A my laptop from my dad.

6) My ddr from my mom and dad.

7) Snow globs from my brother

8) Boots from my dad

9) My doll house from my mom and dad

10) My ps3 from my brother

11) My zone from my mom and dad

12) Life from my mom and dad